Absent

I was about to forget you,
I pretended not to think of you
But today I saw you again
And hope was reborn.

Every time more far,
And more close
All the time absent
And at the same time present.

I was about to forget you
And today you knocked at my door
I Saw your smile, I felt your hands
My eyes smiled and you muted my lips.

In this cold solitude
Today you didn’t show up
My eyes didn’t laugh
Arrive oblivion, you are not longer here.

-Noemi Lara
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*Published and translated with permission of the author you can visit her at https://laramar2.wordpress.com

My not so enchanted summer

Last summer was an unexpected summer, I went to Mexico. I was supposed to be there only the summer, but I end up staying there for 6 months and 6 days and the enchanted summer I was supposed to have…well, it was not so enchanted after all.
I cannot complain either because it helped me to grow as a person, or at least that is what I think. While I was there I found myself, lost myself and found myself again. It was not all that bad, although all the time I was there I was sick, yes you read it right! … I was sick all the time, I got the flu, sore throat, chicken pox, you name it I had it, and I came back with bronchopneumonia, and you wonder why? I wonder the same thing, still I was able to continue with my daily activities, and visit with my friends of the non-profit organizations I work with.

I was also able to do some missionary work although I had to put my homeschooled daughter into regular school though the experience was not that bad after all but as she said it was chaos. Maybe we expected too much or the standards were too low, go figure! Still she was able to make good friends and she loved the experience.

I will tell you all about my trip, in my upcoming posts, in the mean time I just stopped by to say hi, and to let you know that I have not forgotten about you.

The Lord is good, He always is!!!

Blessings! 🙂

@ 4:15

This past Friday was my daughter’s birthday we kissed, hugged like crazy, ate, played and laughed so hard that my tummy hurt, it was so fun indeed, but most importantly she was so happy and that was priceless. I wish I could say the same thing about the day she was born.

It was May 23 @ 10:30 am when I showed up for my doctor’s appointment, she was only 30 weeks of gestation, the next thing I knew was that I had severe preeclampsia and they needed to do an emergency c-section and we may die, there was nothing to laugh about, I was so scared! 12 years later around the same time we were concerned about her school work.

As soon as I arrived to the hospital they prepared me for surgery and @ 4:15 pm a healthy baby was born, still she was very premature, so I was not able to hold her, they just showed her from afar as they took her to the NICU. This time at the same time she shouted “it is official I’m 12 and I’m so happy”

Who knew I would have such a joy and I do thank the Lord for every single minute of her life.

What are you thankful for?

I love the Monarchy!

Yes, I love the Monarchy! After all, I do what my King says. I follow His laws and commandments and He promised  to take good care of me. Called convenience, but I do as He says because I know He will fulfill His word no matter what.

Keeping His laws and commandments are a delight for me, although sometimes I fall and break a commandment, I’m not perfect, but still He forgives me and keeps taking good care of me, no matter how bad things are I know for sure He will be there ALWAYS. I love my King and He loves me, how awesome is that!

He loves me so much to the point He will inherit His kingdom to me, yes that makes me a princess, but please don’t bow down to me!  It’s just me.  ALL the honor and glory should be to Him ALWAYS.  Now you see why I love the Monarchy so much, what’s not to love? But more important I love my King!

And you my friend do you have a King?

 

 

 

DON’T QUIT

When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you’re drudging seems all uphill.
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest if you must but don’t you quit!

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
you may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out –
the silver tint of the cloud of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit-
it’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

—Rudyard Kipling

What do I want for us?

After last week I was preparing for an uproar but nothing happened, this can only mean three things  one, everyone agrees with me, second no one cares or third no one is reading my post (although this last one does not seem accurate because I know people are reading them)  so, it’s either number one or two, still I hope someone cares enough to say something.

Anyway,

Like I said in my last post,  I wasn’t  created from the males head to be above them, nor was I created from his feet either to be trampled, I was created from a rib, to be by his side, and to complement each other. So,  I’m no equal to any male therefore I do not want equality, but what is it exactly that I want.  I only want three things.  Fairness, justice and respect!

1.- Fairness; especially in our jobs. It is not fair that males get paid more than females for doing the same job. It is more sad that in some professions females discriminate among females and prefer males to do the job, I have seen this so many times, especially in nursing, the Director of Nursing or the Nurse supervisor ALWAYS prefer the males and these directors and supervisors are usually females; That is not fair!  WE deserve fairness!  we deserve to be paid for the job we do, not for our gender, there is a huge gap that needs to be fix, and it has to begin with us (yes ladies I’m talking to you!)

2.- Justice; just because we are females that does not mean we should let everyone abuse us physically and or emotionally.  It saddens me every time I hear “oh well boys will be boys” what does that mean!  What are we suppose to be? Especially when I read the news and see sexual abusers get away with it. No sir that is not fair and we deserve Justice!

3.- Respect; we all choose how to live our lives, what or in whom to believe, if someone decides to be a housewife please respect that, if a lady decided to be a petrochemical engineer respect that. Now a days it seems that the role of the females in our society is being undermined, no matter what they do they are always looked down on. We are pretty important not only for human preservation, but for a whole lot of things. So, please respect us!

So at the end  as I said in the beginning I only want  fairness, justice and respect, but this is not only for us (the ladies) this is for every single human being in the earth, we ALL deserve this much because guess what,  we are not created equal!

And you my friend, what do you want?

I DON’T WANT EQUALITY!

WARNING: I hesitated posting this because I do not want to offend anyone. Still, I will speak up my mind regarding this topic, and I think I have the right to do so because I am a woman, so I most likely speaking on my behalf. So, if you are sensitive on this topic and want equality for all women, please DO NOT continue reading and find out why I do not want equality for Women since I do not want to offend you.

So, here I go…

When I was in high school I was so naive, I believe I could change the world, if I only had the power I was going to solve all the inequality issues in the world, and I wasn’t alone in that journey, I had a group of classmates that believed the same thing as me, little did I know.

As much as I defended equality back them, I sincerely said today “I don’t want equality for women!”  I don’t want to be equal to any male.  Why? Because…

First of all we were not created equal, I truly believe I’m was created by The Elohim of Abraham, and Jacob,  yes by The great I AM Jehovah, indeed He is my creator and when He made me He decided to make me different not equal. At this point you don’t even have to believe in God, to see that males and females are not physiologically equal, or are they? Of course not! We don’t have the same strength nor the same feebleness, physiologically speaking we the women can have children’s, men can’t.  I could go on and on, about this topic, but if you are curious, search it and you will be surprised at how different we are. But we are not different to be set apart, we are different to complement each other, and that is the beauty of it.  Just because I don’t have the physical strength that my husband has does not mean I’m weak or less than him, we complement each other!

Secondly,  the equality thing makes it look like I’m in a contest, it seems as though we have declare war on each other, and yes we want to wear the pants in the family, seriously? If we search in the scriptures we find several bible verses that said that the husband is the head, let’s not forget that we are the neck. And what moves the head? Isn’t it the neck? Let’s don’t forget that  “Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands.”(Proverbs 14:1 KJV)

Third, I don’t want equality for women, because I wasn’t  created from the males head to be above them, nor was I created from his feet either to be trampled on, I was created from a rib, to be by his side, and to complement each other, The Lord can never be mistaken in His creation.

Therefore, I don’t want equality because WE ARE NOT EQUAL, not less not more than any male.

Next week I’ll be letting you know what exactly it is that I want and why, meanwhile tell me my dear friend; what do you want for women?

Slowly

Little by little

I’m saving your memories.

Little by little

I forgot you’re not here.

Little by little

I die in silence,

and I live … perhaps …

ensuring …

even I know,

you will not comeback.

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From the book “Del Amor, El Desamor y El Olvido” (Love, Sorrow and Disregard)

Looking

What did you lose?

     —an angel sweetly asks me—

What do you look for incessantly, taciturn?

 

I answer:

I was looking for the time that left unannounced,

the love that enter without saying goodbye

and the tear that was lost when you left.

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From the book “Del Amor, EL Desamor y El Olvido” (Love, Sorrow and Disregard)

 

Move on and Move Forward!

Amazingly January is almost over. It seems like yesterday when we just welcomed the New Year and yet it seems like we are still living in the past. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I’m pretty sure that many of us are still writing 2013 instead of 2014, for some reason it takes time to get adjusted to the new year, after all it was a whole year! So while we are still hanging on to the past; don’t you think today is a good day to move on and move forward?

Forget about the past, forget about what you didn’t do and still hope you can fix, yesterday is history and today is a gift, that is why it is called the present. Yes! Today is a great day to begin, move on and move forward with your life and be happy, life is too short to be wasted. Remember “[the Lord] will show you the path of life; In [His] presence [your life] is full of joy; At [His] right hand are pleasures forevermore” Psalms 16:11 KJV

Don’t dwell in past, move on and move forward! 😉